My heart aches... literally, physically, and metaphorically.

I don't know what to do any more. Situation slightly slipped out of control...
There's lots of chaos and panicking and I don't know how to deal with that, because panick attacks isn't something that happens to me. I'm not a panicking person. Apart from the fact, as it turns out, that I actually am.

All those deadlines, all this stress, all those mixed feelings...
And 185 unread messages.
My heart aches... whenever I start thinking.